On May 22 I was feeling bold and audacious. I stated that I would post monthly progress pictures starting today.
Today is here and I am not feeling bold nor audacious, but I am committed.
Progress pictures it is.
Due to the health issues, metabolic rebuild, and my never ending battle with Gertrude these pictures aren’t fantabulous, but they aren’t horrible. I may be nearly 20 pounds heavier than I was for my show in October, but I am not the same woman that stepped on that stage. I am better, and getting better every single day.
Its only Day 3 of Operation Pro, which officially means I am doing amazing.
I am one step closer to loosening the death grip self loathing has on me.
Usually I look at pictures of myself and grimace.
I will not allow myself to look at myself and my progress like this again. This is the face of pure self loathing.
Today I am determined to actually see ME.
Determined, but not loathing. And YES, I may possibly have the biggest eyes on the planet.
Grab your sunglasses and join me at the starting line.
Looks easy to do, but its hard! Seconds later I bent over and started to gasp for air.
No. Self. Loathing. Check out the hammies! 🙂 hah!
And I am growing some muscles, so that makes me happy!! Yay for more food.
This is just the beginning, and its a pretty fabulous beginning if I get to say so myself.
I am growing muscles and learning to be the best me possible!
Next progress pictures will be coming on June 27, so don’t lose those sunglasses!
Giiirl. I see those hammies! Yes, I do! And you MUST teach me that side pose.
Thank you! 🙂 I am still learning that side pose…its HARD!
Girlllllllll you totally Rock!!!! I cant wait to see what great progress you are going to make 🙂
I want to learn the pose too!!!! I feel you making a you tube how to video soon 😉
You look awesome!!!! An encouragement to all, I have had some friends reading my blog and they say I am good and to not stop at 4. Eekkkkk
I wish you good luck and power as you continue on your journey I will be very happy as my Gertrude goes away!!!!
I have my Coach sunglasses on and I spy with my little eyes someone’s hammies….holla! 🙂
T.
We appreciate your honesty in putting this out there. I think it’s so cool to watch someone’s progression. Plus knowing you have to post progress pics makes you more honest!
I’m becoming the more honest than I ever thought I would be and I love it! 🙂 Thanks for the support.
You look great. 🙂 Progress pictures are always oh so scary. I still haven’t posted any. :-/ So kuddos to you for being so brave! I LOVE that you can see your hamstrings in that back view! NICE! And you are growing wings!!! KEEP IT UP!
Hello! I’ve been blog stalking you for a long time now! I’ve always admired your will power and all of the women that compete. Well, a few weeks ago I decided that I want to compete in figure! Also, I’m coming out of the shadows to comment on your blog 😉
Keep it up pretty lady!
Blog stalk! I love this. 🙂 I am so excited about your commitment to compete; that is so exciting!! Thank you for coming out of the shadows, I can’t wait to see you on stage. Woot!!
I love you, you rock. and I think you have the perfect starting place!!