Even More Scary Than Gluing A Bikini On…

During the past year as I worked towards my first Figure Competition more than my weight, body fat percentage, and muscle mass changed. What I believe about myself, what I know to be possible, and how I live my life have all been radically transformed.

I find myself randomly smiling like an idiot during the day.

The fat girl that used to show up every day in the mirror to tell me bad things about myself only comes around now and again. And when she does, I tell her exactly where to go.

An inexplicable joy bubbles up in me and I feel like yelling from the mountain tops about whatever fabulous thing has just happened.

A year ago none of this was true about me. I struggled to get out of bed in the morning, anxious and already disappointed about the day ahead. My life seemed full from the outside; an important job, swanky condo downtown, trendy clothes, tapas and wine with friends in the evenings, and fantastic shoes. And I mean fantastic.

But on the inside I was dying a slow, painful death.

In order to stand proud and confident on the stage on October 16th, I went on a journey that was more scary than competing in a Figure Competition.  I decided to find out who I am. I was afraid to go on this journey because I thought everything that I learned about myself would be less than appealing.

Guess what?

I’m better than I thought I was. What a fantastic thing to learn!

My life now revolves around helping people to go on this same journey through coaching. I love being a coach. I finally feel like I know what to be when I grow up!  Seeing people find out who they are, how to live a fulfilled life, and doing it with passion makes me feel like a first place pro Figure Competitor every single day.

Don’t settle for just changing what is on the outside of you and what the world sees. Step fully into who you are, no matter how freakishly scary it is, and live life as you were created to live it. The destinations are fun and fabulous, but who you are is amazing and has the potential to change the world.

Compete and be fully you! The world will not be the same!!

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  1. What an inspiring and wonderful post! THANK YOU FOR THAT! We’ve been “down” today. Being away from home is taking it’s toll, health has been an issue for far too long now (neck pain, bronchitis…bleh) and though I’m excited about what lies ahead in my fitness journey, I’m so overwhelmed. Aside from trying to make a home in a B&B basement in Jasper, I don’t know where to start as far as diet, workout, or anything… I know what I want to end result to look like, but I’m desperate to find a starting point. I need dummy-proof right now. So, Coach? Can you help a lost girl out?

  2. I’ve been lurking on your blog for a bit now — love it. Congrats on all your successes. I’m very far from competition but I’m eating clean and working out and aim to lose 50lbs in 2011. Can I sign up for Spring 2012? 🙂

  3. Cindy Smith says

    Preach it, girl! 🙂

  4. I’m interested in knowing whether faith of any sort has played a part in your journey?

    • Faith has definitely played a huge role in all of this. Throughout my journey I have found Jesus again, which surprised even me. I was ready, and basically did, give up on everything about a year ago, EVERYTHING. My job, my marriage, my faith, my house, my friends, my family – you name it! I was just so unhappy and unfulfilled in my life; there was nothing to look forward to. Or so I thought. I grabbed the last bit of hope I had left in my heart and decided to venture out and start figuring out who I am and what I am supposed to do with my life. I wasn’t expecting much, but have received 100 times more than I ever expected. I am pleased and happy to have also gotten to know Jesus – not religion or duty; it is refreshing, life giving, and surprising.

      • That’s awesome, Donloree! I’ve sensed His presence in your life as I’ve “read between the lines” and begun to get to know you through your blog. That’s why I asked. So glad I did!

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