I am not exactly sure what shade it is, but it is definitely blue…as am I.
For 11 months I lived with a very distinct purpose that was fulfilled on a very specific day – October 16, 2010. This was the day I did the scariest and most exhilarating thing so far in life, competing in a Figure Competition. I went to the gym twice a day every day, ate cleaner than womanly possible, and  did anything and everything I could to ensure success. I lived with a laser beam focus because where I was aiming was so high that there was no room for error.
I am so proud of myself for what I accomplished, but suddenly I find myself feeling lost with a lonely disquiet in my heart.
My dream grew up, sprouted wings, and flew away. It was glorious to watch it go, but now I need a new dream to be my companion, a new goal that calls me to live larger than myself.
The journey to the stage was about changing the inside as much as the outside. Inside I have become a new woman, a much stronger woman. I will train hard, kick some butt with the Bikini Or Bust Challenge, and remember that winning starts in my mind.
Anyone else struggle with feeling blue after a competition?
Yes, I feel the same way once something big is accomplished. It’s that empty lost feeling…..hang in there you’ll find something to focus on and work towards soon enough!
I did feel like that after I did the ironman, i trained for a year and had no clue what to do or think about after!
You are not alone ! 🙂
TOTALLY normal! I felt the same way. What helped me was researching and finding the next show I want to do. That way I felt like I now have a new goal to work towards, which I need! Hope that helps, but just remember, you are not alone and it’s so normal to feel lost right now! Hang in there babe!
Thanks! This is why I started the Bikini Or Bust Challenge, need something to keep working towards and to have some accountability. Now I just have to glue my arse to the wagon and be content! 😀
That’s a perfectly normal response. I’ve felt the same way after several drama productions that I’ve been involved in. You throw yourself totally into something & then when it’s over & the excitement wears off, you feel kind of empty for awhile. You’ll bounce back though.
I don’t think I could ever enter a body building competition (my stomach is badly scarred from several surgeries so a bikini is pretty much out for me!) but your bikini or bust challenge inspires me & I’ll be following your blog while I continue to work on my own fitness level. Still hoping to see to see the muffin top shrink!
We should start a group of muffin top fighters!!
I celebrated my one year anniversary with a fun run … fun and run doesnt really go together in my vocab .. but I did have a cupcake at the finish line. 😉
My first triathlon season, after my final race, same feelings exactly…HATE that feeling! I’ve found that I need some type of ‘downtime’ that doesn’t involve crashing and burning, or trying to keep the pace going, but rejuvenates instead. Specifics..? Anything from getting into a good author and drinking tea, to getting out with friends more (the focus tends to reduce that significantly!)
Just my thoughts – congratulations on an amazing accomplishment!
By the way, I’d love to hear if you have any faith-based inspiration on your experiences these past few months.
I have tons of faith-based inspirations from my journey….I am just not sure what to do with them. Got any great ideas? 😉