The Last Freak Out…Or So I Am Hoping…

Today was a whirlwind of activities, working out, posing practice, and last minute contest prep details. I was feeling ok about things until I realized that I am leaving for Calgary in two days to get my first coat of spray tan applied. I also realized that this is the last Tuesday before the event.

There are no more Tuesdays before I get on stage in my bedazzled suit!  What have I gotten myself into?!

It was at this realization that I panicked. I broke out into a bit of a cold sweat and started to blink a lot, and I mean A LOT.  There is so much to do and not enough time!  My brain went into overdrive and like a Catholic nun going over her rosary beads, I started to go over all the things I still need to do.

I caught sight of myself in the mirror…I did not look good.


The look of pure terror and panic.


I do not want to look like this on Saturday, so I got down to business and decided to organize myself.


Let the list making begin!


Coffee, sharpies, paper, and all my notes were piled on the dining room table and many lists were created.


All organized! Feels good to get it out of my head an onto some paper!


There’s a lot to do…and I don’t want to lose sight of any of it, so it only made sense to make it huge and post everything in my dining room.  This doesn’t seem over the top at all…right?

There are some weird things on the lists…


So there is nothing listed for the 'Day of Stuff' yet, perhaps I should put that task on the 'To Do' list?


My favorite things on the lists are:

  • Make checklists (my OCD is really starting to show, isn’t it?)
  • Saran wrap for my suit
  • Exfoliate so that I don’t look like an Oompah Loompah
  • Bring ‘cute’ outfits (apparently I am worried that I will bring ugly clothes along…)

Once I finished the lists and stuck them on the wall with copious amount of painters tape I felt better.  WAY better. No need to freak out…I’ve got this! Right?

One thing I did forget to put on one of the to do lists was drink water.


A gallon and a half a day seems do-able until day 3 rolls around.


Too bad I’m not thirsty. At least it’s not the 4.5 gallons of water I thought I was supposed to drink!

So I’m done freaking out. I have checked that off my list of ‘To Do’s’.  Now onto having fun doing the craziest thing I have done yet in life…and I’ve done a few crazy things!

October 16th is going to be interesting and random, that’s for sure!

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  1. Just started reading your blog after reading the article in the journal. Read it from beginning to end last night. Sending you all my good vibes for Saturday, you are inspiring. 🙂

  2. Kathy Harris says

    It’s all coming together! Almost there! Good luck!

  3. Hmm so what’s the saran wrap part??

  4. Ah this made me laugh. I’m a list maker too! You seem like you’re doing pretty well this last week. I’m excited for you, only a few days from now you’ll be on that stage, yay! It will go by so fast!

  5. You can do it! You can do it! You can do it!

    I was really wishing I could watch my first Figure Competition (and encourage myself even further to sign up) since it’s now in my neck of the woods. Alas, our job in Jasper started yesterday, so I’m now in Jasper for 2-3 weeks. But please… can we get together for a coffee someday in the near future? I have sooo many questions!

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