There’s No Place Like Home!

I am three weeks out from my very first Figure Competition and I am on the road 4,500 kilometres from home.  If you have never trained for a competition, you don’t understand the intensity of this statement.

These last few weeks are make or break.  Even more so for someone like me that has no idea what to expect or what is coming around the corner.

Every morsel of food, moment of cardio training, hour of sleep, and level of anxiety add or detract to your success.  Now if that doesn’t make you anxious, I don’t know what will!

I have desperately tried to stay on schedule:

5:00 am – Rise and shine

5:30 am – Breakfast

6:00 am – YMCA (weights and treadmill sprints)

8:30 am – Start my workday

6:00 pm – 30 to 45 minutes of cardio

10:00 pm – Sleepy time

I am staying with my best friend and her family as we prepare for her oldest daughter’s wedding.  I am helping with the set up, decorating, and in charge of all the food for the reception.  Needless to say, we are up to our armpits in details!

The first three days of travel and helping were just fine.  Then all of the sudden, anxiety grabbed ahold of me and would not let go.  I am so anxious! Anxious to be back home with my gym, my schedule, and my food.  Anxious about the actual event. Anxious to see if I have lost any weight this week and worrying that I haven’t.  Anxious about my posing and t-walk which I am in desperate need of practicing.

At home, I have tons of safety nets in place like my husband who is extremely understanding, my grocery stores, my favorite coffee shop, my kitchen, and a very comfortable routine.  Here I feel out on a limb and am holding on for dear life. My arms are getting tired from holding on so tightly. Luckily I get to rest them soon.

Holding back tears in the Orlando YMCA while running on a treadmill isn’t something that I want to repeat any time soon!

It’s time to exercise my strongest muscle, my brain.  I can and will do this, and I will do it well without being anxious!!

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  1. Go hard girl! You are doing an amazing job … its hard to be away from home and thats without the added pressure of preparing for your very first comp, hell it would be scary for those of us who have competed on numerous occasions!

    Enjoy the wedding 🙂

  2. girl we are “here” for you= i can imagine how you feel being away, but just think you are putting your friend in front of you right now, and that’s a very nice thing that you are doing. Mind over matter – you’ll be back home in no time and be back to your routine.
    Thank u for sharing with us – KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!
    ANXIETY can be used positively too!!

  3. Krissy Jake-Smith says

    Sweet lady…you CAN do this. Just breath, flex, pose, repeat in your moments of anxiety.

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