I may be a bit slow or it may be that the flu-turned-into-a-late-night-cough-that-sounds-like-I-have-black-lung-disease which I got for Christmas has altered my brain, but I noticed that the world didn’t come to a grinding halt. Either way I am pretty happy about the world continuing to spin because I have more living to do
2013 has been dubbed my ‘Year of Fear‘ by your’s truly.
Its 2013 and it turns out I am afraid to do the Year of Fear.
Irony at its finest.
Nonetheless, here I go. I am all about doing it afraid and not living based on feelings, so why should this challenge be any different?
The easiest path to this Year of Fear would be to do things like:
- jump out of airplanes
- hang upside down from tall buildings
- hold snakes
- swim with sharks
- get a poisonous spider for a pet
Honestly, it is not very often I encounter shark infested waters that I need to swim through and rarely am I required to leap out of airplanes in my daily life. I fear all the things I listed above, but my fear of heights and dangerous animals don’t control my life.
Other, less exciting fears control my life.
Over Christmas, I came to realize a pervading fear in my life is, ‘But what if I need it?‘ For years I have been trying to keep things in an effort to protect me from the ‘inevitable‘ which rarely, if ever happens.
I have more stuff than is reasonable. In fact when I think about it, I get a little sick. Then when I try to get rid of it, panic sets in.
BUT WHAT If I NEED IT?
Last month I read ‘The 100 Thing Challenge: How I Got Rid of Almost Everything, Remade my Life, and Regained My Soul‘. The topic and premise was interesting, but the book was not. Whatever you do, don’t buy this book. I will save you a few hours and let you know that we all have more stuff that we need and that you can be happy, heck even happier, with less.
No problem. You’re welcome.
There is part of me that likes to be ridiculous, but ridiculous isn’t sustainable. I want change and freedom that lasts, so I am only going to be quasi ridiculous with my first task in the Year of Fear.
In January, I am going to get rid of 25% of my personal things. I want to say 50%, but that is rather crazy. Or is it? Should I aim for 50%?
Looking for a few opinions…how much should I get rid of 25% or 50%?
I am married to a very nice man who seems to think I am one of the most amazing women on the planet. In an effort to keep him bamboozled when it comes to my faults, I will only huck out, sell, and giveaway my things. There is no reason to turn my greatest fan against me by getting rid of his things during my crazy making.
- Only my things are up for getting rid of – clothes, books, hobbies, sporting goods, my office, and the kitchen because well, Jon wouldn’t care if we ate off paper plates for the rest of our lives.
- If I haven’t used, worn, or enjoyed in over a year…buh-bye!
- Duplicates and ‘back ups’ have to go.
- Keep things I love, not things I like.
- Things that are special occasion items or personally valuable (aka my wedding shoes or that ball of yarn from Soho) can be kept if there is space and they don’t put me over 75% of keeping things.
How I will tackle the project.
- One closet or room at a time.
- 1-2 hours a night two nights a week and Saturday afternoons.
- Unemotional sorting according to the rules.
- List of rooms and areas I will tackle one at a time.
- Refusal to read organizing books and just get down to it.
Just typing these words out makes my skin crawl.
Hilarious thoughts about how to hide my fabulous shoe collection from myself keep entering my brain.
If I pack them all up and take them to my best friend’s house for the month of January would they be safe from the scourge that is about to descend on my house?
- What if I can’t do it?
- What if I fail miserably?
- What if I can’t part with my stuff?
- What if I can’t do it within a month?
The last worry is rather reasonable. I only have 29 days to do this and I have to go out of town for work next week. I suppose this is where the ridiculous part of my personality shows up.
It is time to change my ‘But what if I need it?’ to ‘What’s the worst that could happen?’.
What about the best?
I have a feeling I will be able to bless a lot of people with my things, make a little money, and live a happier and simpler life come February.
This month I will be posting my progress on the blog and sharing what I learn about this funny fear which causes me to hoard things like shoes and coffee spoons and do more maintaining of my stuff than living.
Do you want to tackle the fear of not having what you need when you need it?
I would love to have you join in the challenge. Drop me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org, post on facebook, or leave a comment below and let me know how you’re joining in.
- Get rid of some stuff and drop off your fears at the dump with me this month!
I have a strange feeling I am going to learn more about myself this month than I want to…