This may or may not come as a surprise…
- I am bored.
And not in the ‘What should we watch on TV tonight?’ or ‘There is nothing to do, all my friends are busy, and my whole house is spotless….now what?’ kind of way.
My house can usually be found with a backlog of dirty dishes, laundry and other things that would make Martha Stewart cringe, I don’t know the last time I watched a TV show just for the heck of it, and any spare time in my life is spent counting sheep.
My business keeps my mind hopping and I work out like a mad woman every single morning, but my passion and heart are atrophying. The dreaming part of me that creates crazy feats to conquer and sees problems that require action and reformation is bored.
Bored out of my soul.
The hardest thing about drawing the line in the sand and deciding to not compete in Figure Competitions anymore probably isn’t what you think it is.
- I no longer had a mountain to climb.
The morning I made my decision to quit competing, I found myself sitting in the driver’s seat of my car with tears streaming down my face. My husband stared at me, confused as to why making the decision to not diet like a mad woman for months on end, apply 4 coats of fake tan, and glue a small pieces of bedazzled fabric to my body would make me so sad.
It had nothing to do with the bikini, shoes, or my not-so-lean body.
I felt lost.
Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.
~ Albert Einstein
The most amazing part of my journey to the stage was staring one of my epic fears in the face and doing what I wanted to do with my whole heart, no matter how scary it was.
I learned the skill of doing it afraid.
Fear keeps us from doing things we want to do, grabbing the opportunities that come our way only once, and stepping fully into our calling and purpose.
Living where it is safe and comfortable is easy, but it is also boring.
- Its time to dream again.
- Its time to find a mountain to climb.
- Its time to make a huge impact in the world.
I am hatching an epic, year long plan that is going to be all about ‘doing it afraid‘. My epic-take-ove-the-world-and-challenge-others-to-do-the-same plan is kicking off soon, but first I need your input.
Your ideas, passions, and fears are needed.
- Tell me what you’re most afraid of, what big world problem you would tackle if you could, or both in the comments below.
I am putting my biggest fears, what I want to do in the world, passions, and some other random things into the ‘DL Mind Blender’ and seeing what kind of concoction I come up with.
So far all I know is that we are going to face fear head on and attempt to change the world with many other brave and fabulous people.
- Bring on the Year of Fear!
The Year of Fear will be launching soon, as in October 1 or November 1, keep your eyes peeled for ways to get involved, face your fears, and live passionately and on purpose.
Who needs to wait for January 1 to do something new?
Not this girl!
I am scared out of my mind and I love it.