Taking Care But Not Caring

As you may already know, I have thrown caution to the wind.

I no longer weigh in daily and have stopped my macropedia ways, but I still train like a mad woman and eat responsibly.

While trying to compete with an image of the perfect woman created by the media, I worked really hard to ‘have it all‘. No matter how hard I tried, how intensely I dieted, or how much care I gave my journey towards sculpting my dream body over the the past few years, I received less than stellar results. The harder I worked, the worse it got.

  • Photoshop – 8,349,103
  • Donloree – Big Fat ZERO

My intensity was pushed into overdrive and I earned myself a badge of OCD honor.

Hashimoto.

I could rant on and on for hours about the metabolic fiasco I created and the lack of support from the medical community whom are paid by my tax dollars, but I won’t because , well, I already have more times than I would care to admit.

After coming to the crossroads of living a healthy life and finding peace with myself or choosing to be fully obsessed and start on the path of disordered eating in an effort to create a body that society would approve of, I chose wisely.

  • I chose to get my life back.

In regards to the desire to be magazine cover material, I can honestly say, ‘Who the heck cares?! I am living my life and healthier and happier than I have ever been before in my life.’

Perspective

It is time to change perspectives.

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My washboard abs are ready for the long winter up here in the arctic, fully ensconced in a layer of subcutaneous fat.

Smart abs.

In all seriousness, I am happier in my skin than I have been in over two decades.

The last time I threw on some clothes and ran out the door without assessing exactly what was wrong with my body was most likely when I was 13 years old. Somewhere along the way, I decided that in order to be successful, happy, and fulfilled I had to have a perfect body.

No one has a perfect body. No one.

I have found a rhythm of eating and training that keeps my adrenals from bottoming out on me and appropriately fuels me to live out my audacious life.

The elements of training, eating clean, drinking tons of water, and getting rest have been firmly woven into the fabric of my life, but I have picked off the pesky lint of self criticism, comparison, and waiting to do things until I am ‘beautiful enough‘.

I have been beautiful enough to be me since I arrived on the planet; same goes for you.

If there is one thing I wish I could go back and tell the quirky, self-assured, ready to take over the world 13 year old Donloree, it would be this:

You were made for a purpose on purpose. Don’t let other people’s self doubt and criticism steal your passion and purpose. The world is waiting and needs YOU to show up, not the shadow of someone else.

This is true for you too.

Today is the day

Carpe the diem friends!

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It took me nearly 20 years to figure it out, but now I finally have it.

I am taking great care of myself, but I have stopped caring.

What is holding you back from showing up?

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Comments

  1. Love it! You are so right!!

  2. amen to it all!

  3. Amen! I love it 🙂 I too feel my happiest now in terms of my body, even though I’m carrying more fat than I probably ever have. It’s funny how you can grow more accepting of your body as you age.

    • It is very funny! You kind of think it would be the other way around… Appreciation and gratitude is something I have grown in immensely in the last decade.

  4. I love seeing this attitude.
    I am working on loving my body. As a new runner, I am constantly amazed at what my body can do. I never thought it was possible.
    I can look in the mirror and be astonished at what I have accomplished instead of tearing myself down.
    Don’t get me wrong, I still have those days when I think that if I eat the right things and work out 24/7 I can look like a Victoria’s Secret model, but then I come back down to reality and remember how far I have come and know that the more I love my body (instead of punishing it) the more it loves me back. 🙂

  5. Love this! This is how I’ve been feeling lately and I’ve decided to eat clean and workout for me because it makes me feel good…not so I can be society’s version of thin.

    Thanks for this!

  6. I’m glad you are doing well!

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