Nope. I am not pregnant, I am competing!
After a huge, tedious, and epic uphill battle, these health issues are behind me or under control:
- Severe anemia
- Estrogen insufficiency
- Secondary Addison’s /Adrenal Insufficiency
- Wonky thyroid
My body did more dying than living.
Not only do I get my life back, but I get to compete again. The starting point is not pretty, but it is where I am and I sincerely could not be happier.
I spent the last 15 months getting my health back, training as much as my body would let me, counting every macro, and learning about what is truly important in life.
Due to the amount of weight my body required to get healthy again, it is going to be a long prep. I will be competing in the October 2012 show with the INBF which is anywhere from 38 to 40 weeks from now.
40 weeks is a long time!
Tara and I were chatting on Twitter about how professional competitors spout that you only need 8 to 12 weeks to get ready for the next show…which is true if you are disciplined after your competition and your body agrees with the plan.
My body did not agree.
I would not trade the lessons I have learned, the people I have met, or how I have grown during this epic season of my life.
Yesterday I was musing about how I could have chosen a different path 15 months ago and posted this on my Facebook Page:
There is a difference between intention and direction. Intention is what you want, direction is where you are going. Don’t be surprised at where you are, actively choose where you want to be and go there. Say no to things that are not your dream, purpose, and passion and say YES to who and what you are designed to be. The conditions are never perfect and now IS the time.
I could have given up, dove head first into the food, stopped training, and decided my business needed to be put on the shelf….that I would just wait until it was easier. Something compelled me to move forward every single day. A millimetre of movement in the right direction is still progress.
Not only did I grow mental muscles, I grew actual muscle!
I will post official starting pictures soon, but I know there is some muscle hiding under that fat. Heck, I can even see a few back muscles starting to show.
Where are you going?
It may be dark, hard, and seem interminable but you are going somewhere. You have the choice to be passively pushed somewhere or actively choose your destination.
Stop wishing and hoping. Choose it and make it happen, even if it is one millimetre at a time.